Originally written 12/02/2014
I am glad if this is helping. The reason I am glad is because I have not dealt with my previous losses and then the postpartum depression with my daughter and it slowly eats at you that you start to feel nothing and don't really know full happiness nor sadness and it is sad when you cannot feel your full emotions.
I have a past of being told "why are you upset? There is nothing to be upset about" which has sort of inadvertently stunted my way to deal with feelings. I also have the grief recovery handbook, but I am lazy and you have to do activities
Today was a rough day. So exhausted so only made it to my lunch break and went home. Slept from 2-6 and still tired. Then hub and I had a huge stupid argument which makes me have almost a mental break down where i am ready to punch or bash my head through the wall and makes me want to leave. I cannot deal with these stupid fights anymore.
Also I had the horrible feeling where almost my uterus clenches because i miss being pregnant so bad.
It is just so sad
I am glad if this is helping. The reason I am glad is because I have not dealt with my previous losses and then the postpartum depression with my daughter and it slowly eats at you that you start to feel nothing and don't really know full happiness nor sadness and it is sad when you cannot feel your full emotions.
I have a past of being told "why are you upset? There is nothing to be upset about" which has sort of inadvertently stunted my way to deal with feelings. I also have the grief recovery handbook, but I am lazy and you have to do activities
Today was a rough day. So exhausted so only made it to my lunch break and went home. Slept from 2-6 and still tired. Then hub and I had a huge stupid argument which makes me have almost a mental break down where i am ready to punch or bash my head through the wall and makes me want to leave. I cannot deal with these stupid fights anymore.
Also I had the horrible feeling where almost my uterus clenches because i miss being pregnant so bad.
It is just so sad