I really need to finish those letters. I think they will help me fully move on. I am still taking almost an extra day off a week because I feel I cannot get out of bed and deal with work.
It is starting to hit us a little financially now and I need to stop. I am just exhausted all the time. I may try and work an extra day next week if my supervisor allows.
I would work this Thursday (my day off) as I took yesterday off but daughter started getting sick and husband worries so maybe going to see her doc. Plus if she is ok I want to take her to a drop in. I feel bad for not taking her as she always sees kids and wants to interact but I haven't been going out.
Just hard sometimes. Well I will try and finish the letters and see how it goes.
Still haven't touches the letters. I only have done one and a half all together and the journal is sitting by the door so I see it all the time. Bah.
And I have been really down again the past few days and then angry today. Hoping it is just PMS as I am on cd 23 and don't think I will be lucky this month, but I am ok with that. Daughter was up a lot this month so didn't get to have sex every other day like we hoped.
Also I have a lump on my arm. Had it for years. Past doc said it is probably a fat deposit as I got it when I gained a bunch of weight and lost muscle mass and it is regular in shape and on top of my arm muscle. Still like to get it checked though have sucky coverage at work (hopefully when i am pregnant i will add extra a month or so out from my due date then when on leave hopefully opt out of my work one) so not sure if covered. I also have a mole I am thinking I want to get removed but if it is one that will be removes through my doc it isnt covered by province fully. Bah. Probably just leave things alone as they haven't bugged me yet.
My fertility specialist has already booked a recheck in August as she goes away in July if we arent pregnant yet by then.
Really enjoying my tea though.