As I sit here breastfeeding my son while my oldest sleeps and updating my period tracking apps and the question on the apps "do you wish to get pregnant" I sit and think. I probably won't get pregnant again, but if we do try again could I handle another loss after 5? Could I go through the stress of trying?
I get sad when I think of these things wishing it was easy just to turn off these feelings off but they seem to always lurk there and I am ashamed. Ashamed I should still be jealous. Ashamed I don't feel fully fulfilled.
Sometimes I wish we had a switch to turn this stuff off.
I get sad when I think of these things wishing it was easy just to turn off these feelings off but they seem to always lurk there and I am ashamed. Ashamed I should still be jealous. Ashamed I don't feel fully fulfilled.
Sometimes I wish we had a switch to turn this stuff off.