It has been about a year since I last updated. Life has been busy. My oldest finally started to get some services for her speech delays and some development delays. DS is doing wonderful and growing like a weed everyday. And we have just added a new addition. Another girl. I would have thought that being pregnant again would have been easier since we didn't have a loss between this girl and our son. It was still hard. You still feel those same feelings of worry and jealousy etc. It is easier to deal with as you know what is coming, but it feels like some days you are robbed of happiness that you deserve. Even now with our new baby I will see pregnant women and that awful green monster appears. But I know it gets better and that these feelings don't last all the time. I just wish that sometimes we can enjoy ourselves without that nagging little voice sometimes.
Anyways I just wanted any mom to be know that if they feel this was it is ok. It is normal and that the feelings do pass and we can enjoy our little ones if we take a moment and remind ourselves that these feelings are ok and we can move beyond them.