As our time draws near there is no helping remembering the angels we lost. Feeling guilt for not being able to take care of them, but then knowing if we didn't loose them we wouldn't be pregnant with our man now.
Even with every appointment and ultrasound even as you feel baby move you still expect to hear bad news. That baby is gone.
I am doing my best to just look to today and not look to far ahead, but you can't forget the past.